Saw my old journal entry and realized how inaccurate it felt now, so even though I doubt anyone really pays attention to what I write here, I'll update you on my state of mind.
This Christmas break is drawing to a close, and my two goals I had going in are finally taking some shape. The one, finding a research question for my Extended Essay in school. The other, looking at potential colleges that offer Illustration as a major. Turns out there are only four in the state of California, which means I'm going to have to broaden my horizons a bit more.
Looking to my future the way I have this past week has made me both frightfully excited and terrified. I'm longing to finally get to work within the field of my passion, and really "hone my craft" as my brother puts it, to finally learn everything from the foundation up about color theory and composition, and to really explore who I am as an artist. Along with that comes, of course, the flip-side, which is sheer terror of not making it, of not amounting to anything in the end. But who am I to worry about what the future holds? What will happen, will happen.
I got out of that rut I was in before, and now I'm feeling, if not fully inspired, inspired enough to look ahead and find new projects. The dwarves kind of happened on a whim, though I had been thinking about drawing them for quite a while after the dwarves were first introduced to the public. It feels good to have accomplished that, and I'm looking forward to doing more in the future!
Reading: The Silmarillion, by J.R.R.Tolkien